I used the message from God application on facebook today. God's message is
... that every day you are choosing either to be grateful or to be disappointed. You can worry to no end about what you don't have. Or you can marvel at God's breathtaking gifts: the morning dew, the sun, the clouds, the trees, the flowers, the birds. Could you create any of these? These miracles of life are always around you, ready to be celebrated, ready to be welcomed into your life.
I have been taught to appreciate all God's gifts including those mentioned in this message. I know they are God's wonderful creations. I know God created them for all of us out of His love. There is no question about that. He Loves us that's why He blesses us with all these things.
I woke up this day hopeful. I prayed yesterday for something I really need. it is something that I know I must have right now because otherwise I'd be doomed. Yes! That's not an exaggeration. I prayed with much faith that He would be there as promised. Then I learned my prayer was not granted. Poof! Then I have to be grateful as the message told me. My mind tells me that I should -- that that is the right thing to do. But my heart just say 'how?'
I would like to appreciate the morning dew. But can the morning dew heal my dad's colds right now? I would like to appreciate the sun. But can the sum warm my family's hungry stomach? I would like to appreciate the clouds. But can the clouds cover my bills? I would like to appreciate the trees. But can the trees pay for my rent?
To some my concerns may seem minor -- too little to even think of not appreciating God's blessings. You just don't know the whole story. If you did, you would understand. You might even help in finding the answer to the question 'can the flowers soothe away the anxiety I feel inside?' You might help ask 'can the birds carry my disappointments away?'
No! I am not questioning God. At least that's what my mind tells me. But I am questioning myself why these things are happening to me. I know there are reasons behind these. There are reasons why do not deserve the blessings others receive. My question is when will this disappointment, this anxiety, this sadness, this despair end. Will this end before I wake up again to another set of blessings -- the morning dew, the sun, the clouds? Will I have to wait till the trees fall, the flowers wither and the birds die? Or will I wait for the time when I will no longer feel, see, hear, smell and taste all these creations? Will these end with a bang!
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