Wednesday, November 17, 2010

sun cellular postpaid application

i applied for a postpaid line at the sun shop in cash & carry, makati last friday....i brought along all the documents required (valid id, proof of billing, income tax certificate, payslips for two months)....a girl assisted in completing the forms required....she even discussed with me the possible free phones i could get....she then told me that my application will  be submitted that afternoon and i should expect a call within three days....the next day i received a call (prompt) asking if i have already received information regarding the status of my application...i said not yet....she then said my application has been denied....i asked why and she said she doesn't know....then she told me that i could apply for a line without the free phone...i forgot how they call that promo....it has no freephone and no 24-month lockup.....yesterday (tuesday) i decided to just get the line without the free phone....i felt that that was a better deal because of the no lockup provision....anyway the phone that they will be giving is not a must-have phone so who cares.....on my way to the mall i got a call from sun asking me if i am willing to wait because they will be forwarding my application for re-evaluation....i asked why....she said that that's usually what they do with denied applications....i found it unusual that they will ask for re-evaluation three days after the first evaluation....but i said yes anyway.....then a few minutes ago i received another call again form sun....i was asked (again) if i have already received information regarding my application....i said not yet....and then she said yet again that my application has been denied....i laughed....hmmmm....will i receive another call after three days for another re-evaluation?.....hahaha....sun cellular......fun doing business with them....hahaha.......sun goes up.....sun goes down.....sun goes up.....sun goes down.....a cycle we all know......like their application process......or better yet, like their signal....i'll just get that line without the free phone.....to experience a roller coaster ride......would you like to join the ride?.....

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

trespassing

on my way to the office i saw a huge fenced vacant lot that....there was a 'no trespassing' sign hanging on the makeshift gate......what is trespassing?.....i learned from my grade school language that to trespass means to enter a property without the owner's consent......hmmmm.....sounds simple, right?......to enter a property uninvited.....would you say a party gatecrasher is trespassing?....would you call a person who is violating your privacy a trespasser?.....would you call stepping over somebody else's responsibilities trespassing?....i wonder....

wait......

i just checked.....wiki says 'trespass' is divided into three groups....trespass to the person, trespass to chattels and trespass to land.....okay......so there.....i didn't read the entire wiki output because it was too long it would take me days to finish....fine, fine.....i'm exaggerating......

so why am i so concerned with trespassing.......actually i'm not.......i'm just a little concerned.....why?....well i just learned that a friend is feeling bad lately because somebody is 'stealing' his responsibilities at work....a colleague of his is doing the things he is supposed to do.....that guy must be trying to earn some brownie points from the higher ups......bad.......bad.......am i being judgmental?....i am?.....okay, fine, maybe that guy just wants to help.......hmmmmm..........hmmmm......but i still think that is bad......if that guy has pure intentions then he should have asked my friend first if he wants some help......tsk...tsk.....

trespassing?......i say yes......

Monday, November 8, 2010

insecurity...

why are you so insecure?
you graduated from a good school?
you have a good job?
you have had your share of promotions?

you have money?

these are things that should give you some amount of confidence. these things should assure you that you can do it. these things should assure you that you are good such that you don't have to always compete with others just to prove yourself.

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in my opinion insecurity develops as we grow up...

examples:
1. family of girl is not rich...she does not get to buy nice clothes and shoes like her other classmates...when she grows up and starts earning money, she buys signature clothes...seems okay, right?...the problem is she does not just wear those nice clothes to look good bu to look better than her colleagues or friends...she may or may not be intentionally doing it but she is competing with them...
2. a boy gets good grades...he becomes part of the honors list but never makes it to the top...he knows he is doing his best so he feels bad because his efforts never seem enough to make it to number 1...at first he either feels he is doing something wrong or there is something he is still not doing but should be doing...nothing wrong with that...but he cant find that something...this leads him to resent the others who seem to have discovered that something that he still fails to unearth...as he grows and enter college problem becomes bigger because he fails to get in to the school that he thinks is where all the bright ones study...this makes his hatred towards those who are better than him more pronounced...he always competes with them...he likes to look at the things that they do so that when they commit mistakes he can have something to use against them...
3. a girl grows up with an older sister and a younger brother...dad likes her older sister very much...mom likes the youngest so much...she feels sad because she does not get the same attention as her other siblings...she tries her best to get noticed but to no avail....she feels depressed....then she because envious of the two...she tries her best to compete with them...then she grows up and enter into a relationship...she always feel her boyfriend is fooling around...she gets jealous all the time....

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these are issues that should be handled by parents early on...parents sensitive to the needs of their children will notice these signs....they make ways to address them...they give them assurances so they will feel assured...complete...confident...when these issues are not addressed early they become bigger...and the feeling of insecurity could he really consume ones whole being and this could lead him to do really bad things...

examples of possible consequences
1. could lead to stealing to money just so he or she could buy nice things
2. could lead to entering jobs like drug dealing or prostitution just to have money
3. inventing stories about others to put them down
4. cheating in exams
5. having several boyfriends/girlfriends at the same time to feel loved
6. entering into adulterous relationships
7. ....murder

again, to prevent these things from happening, kids should be given enough love by their parents...parents are responsible for making the children secured in all aspects of their lives....

Friday, October 29, 2010

just give it a try

had a nice conversation with a cousin a few nights ago...we talked about a lot of things...mostly about plans for the future...the conversation actually centered on taking bold steps...about doing the things you've dreamt of doing...i kind of envy her for being brave enough to abandon her regular job to try out something that she really wants...she's an account...after a few years of practicing that profession she decided to do something new...she became an artist...i think she became part of an advertising agency...then she decided to leave that job to yet again fulfill another dream...that is to become a farmer...seldom will you hear someone abandon a white collar job to become a farmer...well, she does not really do what a typical farmer does...i mean i don't think she plows the field with the help of a carabao...she has a farm where she plants tomatoes, herbs, etc...she has a helper of course...but whatever it is, i admire her for taking that risk of leaving a regular job to do farming where the future isn't really clear...for me, at least...now she has harvested tomatoes and other vegetables...and i can see she is having fun...i admire her because i've had other plans in the past that i have totally abandoned for fear that i will not succeed...i'm not really sure if i can still do those things now not because i feel too old for them but because i need my regular job because i need a steady income to provide for my father's needs...however, my cousin still believes that i should give a few of those dreams a try...she's not encouraging me to leave my job but instead she is telling me to at least try my other plans even on a part time basis...i think i can do that...or i can give some of them a try...i just need to have that courage to take the first step...oh, and i also need to remove that fear of failing...you see i've been quite successful in many of the things i've done so failing is something i'm really anxious about...but like what she said i should try...how will i know if i'm going to succeed if i do not try, right?...so...what's the first thing that i'll try to do...i don't want to say it just yet but i've already found a way to start...i saw a seminar/training that i can take to see if i will be able to do it...basta....bahala na si batman...

Thursday, October 7, 2010

tale of three fathers

while on the bus on my way to the province, i overheard this family talking....

mommy: daddy what did the doctor say about "boyet" (i can't remember the young boy's name)
daddy: he said it's just ordinary cough
mommy: what medicine did he give
daddy: i forgot and i lost the doctor's prescription
turning towards a girl who is probably just 12 years old
daddy: "girlet"(i can't rememebr the young girl's name), what's the name of the medicine?
girlet: its ________
daddy: oh yeah that's right

wow! the father forgot the name of his son's medicines...tsk...tsk...and he lost the prescription...

after the family got off the bus another family sat behind me....a dad, a son and a daughter...

daddy: (talking to boyie) what do you want to buy in SM...
boyie: (whispering) lunch box
daddy: where is your lunch box?
girlie: he broke it
 boyie: but not on purpose
daddy: so what do you bring to school?
boyie: i just buy food at the canteen
daddy: how much is your allowance?
girlie: we bring 70 each
daddy: your mom didn't tell me about that lunch box went we talked...i should have sent money so you could buy one...don't worry...we'll buy a new lunch box...then we'll eat at jollibee....then we'll watch legend of the guardians....then we'll play at the timezone.....

it appears to me that the father does not live with the kids....either he works in another place or he is separated from his wife already.....

on my way back to manila i witnessed yet another story about a father and his kids....

i was seated on the third row....i could hear loud cries from outside the bus...a young boy was wailing.....loud.....very loud.....then after a couple of minutes a mother got on the bus...she was pulling a young boy...he is probably just 6 years old....the boy was trying hard to get away from the mother.....

mommy: stop crying....sit down....
boy: (cry)...(cry)...i want to stay with daddy....
mommy: stop it....we need to go....

then the dad got on the bus as well with another boy who is probably around 10

boyong: daddy i want to stay with you and kuya (big brother)
daddy: "boyong" you cannot stay here...you have to go to school....
boyong: but why can kuya stay with you and i cannot...
daddy: sit down....stop crying.....don't worry you'll come here again next month...

the father kissed the mom and the boy goodbye and left with  the kuya.....i saw he was teary-eyed....

three dads....different stories....

first dad.....probably lives with his kids.....they stay together in one house......forgets about his meds....seems to be taking things for granted....

second dad.....obviously trying to make up for lost time......trying to connect with his kids....trying to build a relationship

third dad......heart broken.....torn between letting his son go or allowing him to stay....


three dads....three different stories.....

Monday, September 27, 2010

PHOTOJOURNEYS: a taste of Vanille

PHOTOJOURNEYS: a taste of Vanille

CEBU....senor sto. nino....a childhood dream fulfilled

every time people would ask me what place outside of luzon i would like to visit i would always say CEBU....that was when i was in grade school....i think that lasted up to high school....i had that idea after my father went to cebu on a business trip...he came home with several sto. nino images....he brought home a lot of small ones....they were no more that 4 inches tall....most of them my mother gave to their friends....one image which was about 9 inches tall was kept in our house...that one was supposed to be for me....i loved that image....it was a black sto. nino....i felt it was unique because of its color...i didn't know that that was how sto nino de cebu was supposed to look like.....


i would always ask my parents to bring me to cebu one day so i could go to the place where the BIG sto. nino can be found...but we never got that chance as a family to go there....

when i studied in manila i learned that there are beautiful places other cebu.....i met friends from iligan, davao, cotabato, etc....and then i also learned about boracay.....cebu was pushed far back i almost forgot it existed...the first chance i got to fly outside of luzon i didn't go to that place i've always dreamt of...instead, i visited boracay.....i loved the place so i would always say that that's the place i would love to visit over and over...but i would also say i like to go to other places as well like palawan, davao, cagayan de oro, etc....cebu was not part of my plans anymore because i found out from friends that it looks just like metro manila....


and then an opportunity to go to cebu came...i was excited....well, i was excited just to be able to travel again and not really to see the place...so i booked our flight and reserved a room in a pension house....

when i arrived in cebu i was surprised that i felt really happy....i felt like i have a connection with the place....i didn't feel this throughout the entire preparation period.....i just felt when i arrived that i like cebu....the cebuanos are very kind...all the people we've encountered were great....all the people we've asked for help were kind enough to help us.....the taxi drivers didn't take advantage of our being new in the place....the security guards were approachable...they gladly helped us with directions.....one security guard was even gracious enough to take my picture when i was struggling to take a picture of myself with the fountain as a background using my cellphone....

this is the fountain and the security guard you can see at the back was the one who took my picture (which i will not show)

the place really looked like manila as i was told....there's traffic....long line at the taxi bays.....most of the shops are the same as those that you'd see here....but i didn't mind....in my 5 days stays i visited ayala center 4 times and sm cebu once....



view from the second floor of the ayala center...stage was set because ogie alcasid will be performing that night
there's the newly opened redbox at the back....
then there's starbucks
the long line of taxi...


but the best part of my stay in cebu was my trip to the BASILLICA DEL STO. NINO....the first thing i did when i saw the image was to take pictures...the 'tourist' in me said take lots of pictures of sto. nino....




i also took pictures of me with the image in the background.....there were a lot of people just looking at the image which was placed high up on one side of the big quadrangle....most of the people were praying...i think....some were singing along with the music playing in the background....after taking a few shots i entered the church....


that's when i felt the same feeling i must have felt when i got hold of the sto. nino my father brought home more than a couple of decades ago....i closed my eyes and started to thank Him for bring me to the place that i used to love as a kid.....i thanked Him for allowing me to finally see the church where i know my father prayed for blessings for our family....we didn't stay long but i know in the short time i was there i was able to express my gratitude for just being there....i also prayed for my father particularly about his health.....i felt like it was my time to ask for blessings for our family....my father's prayers were generously answered then....i know my prayers now will also be answered generously....or perhaps even more......

i saw a stairs leading to the image of senor sto. nino.....i think people go up there to 'touch' the image and pray.....it was already night time when we went there....nobody was going up anymore(that is if people really go up there)....i thought that going up there would have been a nice experience but it was okay.....i felt that just being there in the quadrangle was more than enough.....it was more than enough to fulfill a childhood dream.....it was more than enough to say my thanksgiving....it was more than enough to pray for my requests...it was more than enough to feel confident my prayers were heard and will be answered....

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

patintero...taympers...hope...

last night i went to robinsons place, ermita just to wander around...i walked aimlessly...it was probably the first time i went to a mall without real purpose...i walked without knowing where i was going...i looked at shops without really seeing...i bumped a few guys along the way...they were probably wandering inside the mall just like what i was doing...it was tiring but i felt good...at peace...did i get anything from it?...except perhaps for a couple of calories off i got nothing from it really...but then again i felt at peace...it was like having my 'taympers'...remember that time when we were kids playing patintero?...we used to say 'taympers' if we want to rest...if we feel tired...if we feel some pain...or we just feel like stopping for no reason...i had my 'taympers' last night and it felt great...but just like any game of patintero the 'taympers' has to end...it was i think 9 already and the mall is already closing...i has no choice but to go out...but i didn't want to go home just yet...so i walked...and i walked...and i walked...while walking i thought, once the 'taympers' in patintero ends, the games begin again...but in patintero, if failed to make a goal in your firsts attempt you are g iven another chance after the team has tried their luck...if you fail again you just have to wait a while and you'll get yet another chance...is it the same thing in life?...do we get the same privilege of getting several chances...yes, i think we do...but the game of patintero is not a never-ending game...it ends when somebody says he's out already because he is tired...it ends when it gets dark...it ends when our parents calls us to go home...does this mean our second chances in life end also?...perhaps it does when we get too tired and we say we no longer want to go on...or when everything gets dark we could no longer see anything even hope...or when our maker calls us home...was that 'taympers' my last timeout...after it has ended and the game begins, will i be able to get a chance to reach that goal again...or is it already 'time's up'...

when i got home i went directly to my room and lied down on my bed...i closed my eyes hoping i would be pricked by a needle that will put me to sleep much like what happened to 'sleeping beauty'...i was hoping i will only be awakened by a kiss of blessings...i was hoping to wake up to a brand new day full of hope...not a day when all hope is gone...then i was awake again...the room still looked the same...the pile of laundry at the foot of my bed still looked the same...the table with my grooming stuff still looked untouched...the faucet in bathroom still gives the same dripping sound...the tricycle drivers outside our house are still the same bunch of guys i saw yesterday...the security guard at work still wears the same old uniform...did anything change?...not a single bit...oh there is one change...the calendar says it's no longer august...it's already the start of the highly anticipated ber months...but even that could not hide the fact that nothing changed...the same life...the same life...


when i opened my facebook the first thing i saw was this line from a 'friend' whose profile name is 'the bible'...

Freedom following pain

The resurrection came after the crucifixion, this is God's pattern throughout the Bible: freedom following pain. In times of pain know that God seeks freedom for you, release, healing and great joy!  As Isaiah 40:31 states:

But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint. 

i said 'i believe'...yes, freedom does follow pain...but what if i already chose to alleviate pain already by being at peace while wandering about...did i already lose that freedom i am supposed to get?...
then this line from the same 'friend' again...

May the God of your hope so fill you with all joy and peace in believing (through the experience of your faith) that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound and be overflowing (bubbling over) with hope. (Romans 15:13)
hope...if it's the goal in patintero, how long do i need to reach it...how many 'taympers' will i need...will i last long enough to cross the last line...will the whole game last till i finally cross that last line...hope...

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

super mario...pineapple and gin punch...red wine...good old friends...memories

i had a wonderful night with my grade school and high school friends last sunday...we went to jhoan's house to celebrate her birthday...ako, jhoan, arnold, karen, vicky, maricel...it was nice recalling the good experiences we had back in the old days...i know they get together regularly (i get to join them only once in a while) but there are still a lot of good memories to talk about...one of the things we've talked about is out extension parties back in high school...extension parties are 'extensions' of the christmas parties we celebrate in school...you see parties in school end at around six...so feeling 'bitin' we go to a classmate's house to continue the fun...our venue for i think all four christmases we spent together in high school was vicky's house...they have a big 'sala' in their second floor...a perfect venue for partying...and her parents are welcoming so we always felt at ease...as i look back all our parties where fun...all wholesome...perhaps the most 'adult' thing we ever did was to have punch...pineapple juice mixed with a small bottle (bilog) of gin...definitely diluted...pineapple continuously added...gin forgotten...probably high school students now will call our parties boring...no alcohol...you can hardly consider the punch we drink as alcoholic...

another thing we discussed was the nintendo game we played during our elementary years...i think vicky was the only one who has nintendo so it's only in thier house where we get to play supoer mario...i was surprised that last night that two decades after, super mario still exists...i saw a housemate playing super mario in his psp...i asked what goes on in the super mario now...iasked if they still save the princess...yes, they still do save the princess...are the mushrooms...is there still a flower you have to get?...yes...do you still jump over turtles?...yes...is there still a star to help you overpower the enemies?...yes...wow...not much changed...

as i reflect i realized that there are a lot of things in life that still remains the same...vicky's house is still there but i don't know if we could still party...super mario and his brother luigi wer able to fight all the enemies thus they still remain...and more importantly friends remain...there are little changes, yes, but for the most part walang pinag-iba...we may now have red wine (thanks to arnold and zeth who now resides in spain -- i regret not being able to join them when she came home) instead of pineapple/gin punch...but the friendship is still there...laughter...the same....stories...the same...i hope to find time to join them again...soon...there are still a lot of wonderful memories to relieve...

Friday, August 27, 2010

hope is what we need...

i felt bad when i read an article about the manila bus hostage taking this morning...first i felt bad because i felt the author of the article was looking down on us...but then as i went on with the article i realized that a lot of what he is saying is true...many things that happen to us according to him is because many of us have already lost hope...he said a lot of us just become content on what is there...we just accept whatever is presented to us...i didn't like to believe this at first...really...but it seems that what he said is right...there are many of us who say "okay na yan kesa wala"..."pwede na yang trabaho na yan kesa mamalimos"..."okay lang ma late kasi late din naman sila"...

i hope we do not lose hope...because there is hope...look at that girl who sent her wishes to wish ko lang...she is a child who probably didn't even know how to spell hope...but she showed hope...look at that teachers who posted the concerns of her students in her facebook account...she was saddened by the lack of funds from the government...but she knew she wasn't lacking in friends whom she know would help...she hope...so she could show hope...what is their common denominator...their situations are what many would say hopeless...had those situations happened to others they would have said "let us just accept our situations because we have no other choice"...but both of them hoped...and they got what they hoped for...

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

we are now hostages of our own people....

there!...what we've all been fearing for happened...we are now hostages by other people's judgments...i'll say it again we are now hostages by OTHER PEOPLE's judgements...i didn't say other nationalities...i said other people...because we are not only hostages of foreigners' opinions but our own opinions as well...so many things are being said...so many issues being discussed in public...so many criticisms being hurled at people...filipinos, why are we making ourselves hostages of these opinions, issues, concerns, criticisms...do we need to do this to ourselves?...what we need, i believe, is to stand up together, as one nation, to prove to the world that we are a good people...a peace loving race...a God fearing nation...we have done this successfully in the past...we have done this in EDSA back in 1986...we can do it again now...

we do not need to go to the streets bearing placards saying filipinos are good people...we do not need to write articles such as this to shout out loud that we are kind people...what we need is to stop pulling each other down...what we need is build each other up...what need is to sow love...what we need is to show care for others...  

let us take inspiration from filipinos who have done so already...

efren penaflorida jr teaches streetchildren how to read and write...how to live life...he teaches them out of love...he gives them inspiration...he gives them hope...

people driving the ambulansyang de paa...they take time and effort to carry the ill through long and difficult trails just to bring them to the nearest hospital where they could be given proper treatment...

the filipino nannies in other countries who leave their own children behind and take care other peoples' kids to earn a living for their families...

the filipino caregivers in other countries who leave their own aging and sick parents to take care of other old people just to make money to buy medicines for their own parents...

the filipino teachers who teach other nationalities to speak a language that they themselves cannot call their own...

the soldiers who risk their lives in protecting us from terrorists...

the missionary priests who go to places where they are not welcome just to let them know the Good News...

the old ladies who volunteers to clean the churches everyday to give us a conducive place to worship our maker...

let us take inspiration from these people who chose to look at the beauty of life rather than all the negativities....let us take inspiration from them so we could lift the image of the filipinos once again....let us take inspiration from them so we could show the world who we truly are...let us take inspiration from them for the filipino children...the kids who have no idea of what the whole manila hostage drama was all about...the kids who are at this very moment listening to their teachers believing that what they'll learn will give them a bright future...the kids who are at this time dreaming that someday their parents who are picking 're-sell-able' items from dumpsites will find free tickets to a theme park under the pile of trash...the kids who are hoping to someday see a mouse that they will not fear...

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

manila bus hostage...do not let innocent filipinos become hostages of your judgments

the manila bus hostage drama yesterday was very alarming...it's very traumatic...not only for the people directly involved but for those of us who watched the situation on tv as well...

but what's more alarming for me is the effect of this on us...the reaction of the international community...last night i was saying there will be travel bans again because of this manila bus hostage taking...true enough, i read on facebook that there are several travel bans already...

i also pity all the filipinos working abroad...most especially those people working in hong kong and other chinese communities...whether we like it or not, these overseas filipino workers will somehow be affected...they might be treated unfairly...some will be looked down upon...others might even get abused...

i'm writing this to appeal to everybody to react on this with calm...please always remember that we are all different...filipinos are different from other races...and even us who come from the same race also differ from one another...please do not look at us as if all of us are evil people...please do not look at all of us as if we are criminals...yes, there are filipinos who do unacceptable things...we all know that...we recognize that...in the first place we cannot deny what happened yesterday at the quirino grandstand...but is this not the same thing that happens in other countries?...there are also hostage takings in other places...there are also others who get robbed in other countries...there are also others who get beaten up in dark alleys in other nations...what happened yesterday is not unique to the philippines...that bus hostage taking could happen -- no! that happens in other places as well...

please do not get me wrong...i'm not saying that we should just all forget what happened yesterday just because bad things happen everywhere anyway...no!...what i'm saying is that let us not blame all filipinos for what happened...we say what the hostage taker did was wrong because he used innocent people for his own purpose...i say yes, i agree...those innocent people should not have been put in harm's way...my appeal to you also stems from that idea...please do not let innocent filipinos be affected by what that one man did...because if you do you are also doing to us the very you thing you hate...you are making us hostages...innocent hostages...yes, justice must be served...but not at our expense...let the proper authorities do their jobs...in the mean time let us look at the brighter side of filipinos...

there are a lot of foreign visitors in our land who have been pleased with our hospitality...there are a lot of foreigners who have experienced our honesty...there are a lot of foreigners who have been entertained by our jolly attitude...these are the things that i hope we will not forget to see...even how blinding that hostage taking is...

we are a nation still trying to start a new life...a new life after much political turmoil...to look at us as criminals or evil people will certainly not help...please let us stand up again as a nation and allow us to prove to you that we are good people....mabuhay ang mga pilipino...mabuhay ang pilipinas....  

Sunday, August 22, 2010

moving on after moving on

a friend shared an interesting story…an unlikely story…a few hours after sharing the story she sent me a text message saying it was nice she shared it coz she realized that she has finally moved on…

sometimes it is really difficult to realize that we have already moved on…sometimes we fail to see that we are no longer hurting because we are already so used to the pain that we feel it is already part of us…and to realize that we have moved on we think we need to see something new to happen…something great…something so noticeable it could not be me mistaken for anything else…but most of time nothing great will happen…no sparks from somewhere…no fireworks…no band playing when we go home…we just need to really focus on how we feel so that we can see little changes that when put together will tell us we have moved on…it’s hard to describe what these little changes are…the little changes that will matter to me are probably different from the little changes that will mean something to you…
so, does it mean that when we realize that we have moved on we can already be happy…for many people yes…for some no…as said, some of us get so used to the feeling of hurting that when we realize that we are no longer hurting we miss the feeling…then we go back to the start where we feel we could not move on – this time from having moved on…crazy?…yes!…but that is what happens to some of us…so how do you really move on?…just tell yourself you have moved on…disregard whatever your emotions tell you…just decide that you have moved on…
does this make sense?…i’m not really sure…but i hope it does…wink

Friday, August 20, 2010

we care....only in st. mary of the woods school

it's been a tiring week....too many things to do....a lot of things left undone...but at the moment i don't want to think about those things...i do not want to ruin the satisfaction i feel because of the wondeful presentations that our students gave in our program today.,.the students did a great job an i am well pleased...im sure their parents are also happy of how their children performed...

i am also pleased with the way the teachers did their jobs...they were able to come up with good production numbers...but what pleases me more was how they showed their love for the students...let me give you some examples...

one little girl was to suppoed to participate in the 'paligsahan sa pagtula"...she got scared so she didn't want to join anymore...the adviser came to her and tried to reassure her that everything was going to be fiine...she was really scared so she cried...when the teacher saw this she said "it's okay i wont force you to join"...i asked the teacher whatg prompted her to say that...she said she didn't want the child to feel pressured and traumatized...then another teacher took the child and let her sit on her lap...how touching....

in one class performance one child was crying...he was dancing but he was crying...one teacher standing near him kept saying "you're doing fine"....then after the presentation she run to the boy and kissed him...

these are the things that i am really proud of...in other schools only seleted students get the chance to perform during programs...the best students are selected to give excellent presentations...with us, we let all students join...we let everybody get their chance to show others what they have...even if the teachers know they will not beable to memorize the steps or say the lines well they still give them the chance to join...only in st. mary of the woods school...

thank you students for making us proud...thank you students for giving us, teachers, the chance to become real TEACHERS....thank you for allowing us to find all your potentials....

thank you parents for allowing us to motivate the students to givetheir best....thank you for supporting us...

thank you teachers for showing you care....only in st. mary of the woods school

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

12 year basic education

two weeks ago, an old friend wrote in her facebook account about her experiences as a new public school teacher in the province...she just started work this month....anyway she got really depressed because of the situation of her students....each child uses only one notebook for all subjects...the parents can afford just that...they also do not have a lot of books....they just share what limited books they have....after working in a private school where all students could afford to buy notebooks and books that must have been really depressing....

last week, while on our way to skygarden in quezon city, i heard two friends talking about books...i eavesdropped...i learned that one of them asked for books from the others....it turned out her niece is studying in a public school and she was only given one book....yup...not one set of books but one book...she found out about this when she found a note from the teacher in her notebook...the note says that her niece is not doing her homeworks...

now there are talks (loud talks) that there are plans to increase the 10-year basic education to 12...if that will happen do they think they can provide all the books that the students need...we only have 10 years now and we could not give all the students even half of the books that is required...try to go to the provinces, sirs....there you will see the real state of the classrooms....here in manila all public school students probably receive the complete set....but as you move farther away from the capital, book supply also moves far away from what is proper, appropriate, needed or required....

can they build enough classrooms?...they couldn't even have all the old (dilapidated) buildings repaired....look at what happened to one school where a student died when an old building collapsed...look at classrooms being used by a class with 60 - 70 students....look at classrooms divided into two to accaommodate two big sections....look at desks shared by 3 - 4 students.......look at students studying under 'talisay trees'...look at 'stages' used as classroomS and not as venues for performances.....

students need good teachers to learn....will they be able to provide enough teachers for this additional two years....if they could provide that, will they be able to pay them enough....a lot of good teachers now are going abroad because they do not get paid well here....some education graduates would even prefer to work as domestic helpers (no, i'm not saying this is bad....this is just not what they trained for) in other countries because the pay is better....

some people advocating this 12-year basic education are saying that they are going to increase the  budget for education...can they and will they really do that?...even if they do, i think what ever additional budget they will give to education will not be enough to even compensate for the deficit every school child is now experiencing....and then they will add two years???....

i wonder....what is their real reason for thinking about this 12-year basic education curriculum?

Monday, August 16, 2010

gospel for AUGUST 16 - the rich young man

the Gospel for today is about the rich young man who asked Jesus what he needs to do to gain eternal life....before i share to ou my  reflection on this, here is the Gospel from Matthew 19:16-22

A young man approached Jesus and said,



“Teacher, what good must I do to gain eternal life?”


He answered him, “Why do you ask me about the good?


There is only One who is good.


If you wish to enter into life, keep the commandments.”


He asked him, “Which ones?”


And Jesus replied, “You shall not kill;


you shall not commit adultery;


you shall not steal;


you shall not bear false witness;


honor your father and your mother;


and you shall love your neighbor as yourself.”


The young man said to him,


“All of these I have observed. What do I still lack?”


Jesus said to him, “If you wish to be perfect, go,


sell what you have and give to the poor,


and you will have treasure in heaven.


Then come, follow me.”


When the young man heard this statement, he went away sad,


for he had many possessions.

when i heard this Gospel this morning i thought it must have been really sad and depressing for the rich young man....he might be thinking how he can give all he has when he needs to live....he needs his material possessions to survive here on earth....if he is living in our world now where money talks he needs every possession he has.....it must have been doubly hard to imagine that all the things he is doing -- following the commandments --  is not enough to inherit LIFE....

he needs to give all that he has for those things are tying him down....he is not able to fully serve God because all his  material things are taking away his attention from the Lord....

i said i'm luckier than this rich young man for i have no material possessions to boast of....i said i have almost nothing so naturally i have nothing to give....in fact if this story is happening now i think i should be one of those who deserve to get something from whatever that young man will so decide to give....im always concerned where to get money next....then i realized im no different from that rich young man....like him i am also tied down by my earthly concerns -- i with my worries how to get money -- him with all his money......

if i  will not be tied down with this concern i can fully do what i need to do....and that is to follow the Lord....this is very difficult to do....like i've said we all need money to survive....we can do almost nothing without it....so what must i do?....forget about thinking where to get money to pay the bills or to buy meds?....forget about looking for money and just run away from my obligations?....that is not possible, i believe....maybe i just need to fully trust in the Lord and not worry about it....maybe i just need to trust in his goodness that all my concerns will be take care of.....maybe i just need to believe that he has in his possession all that i will ever need here on earth and all i need is to ask from him....maybe ill do these....easier said than done....God grant me the grace to fully trust in you....

Friday, August 13, 2010

why i need to lose weight...

i just had my breakfast...half rice (half cup of fried rice that is)...half pansit (yeah, that's half order of pansit)....two pieces siomai...how will i lose weight if i eat like this....hay....who cares....hahaha

but seriously, how do i lose weight?....i don't know....well, i know because i write about them (article writing gig)....but i do not follow what i write....i dont follow the tips like eat frequently but in small portions, don't miss meals, do aerobic exercises, build some muscle mass, drink tea and drinks with l-carnitine, etc....i don't follow any of those, that's the problem....oh....wait....i do....i follow the first....eat frequentlly but in small portions.....okay.....no need to raise that eyebrow...i just follow half of it....eat frequently....that's it.....so why don't i follow my own tips....you see, sometimes we need or i need some motivation to really start doing something....maybe i should try to find a reason why i need to lose weight....hmmm.....

hmmm.....health reasons?.....yes, that could be....the days that followed after my check up at the makati medical center were characterized by conscious eating.....i didn't eat a lot the week after the check up....but after that i went back to eating 'normal'........why?.....i don't know.....maybe because i was thinking may gamot naman (there are medicines available) or wala naman akong nararamdaman (i do not feel sick)....bad...that's bad attitude....i know.....trust me...i know....ahaha....

hmmm....how about being 'noticed'...yeah, you know what i mean....you don't?....fine....just imagine this: there's a guy who is lean with abs as well defined as that of derek ramsey beside a guy who has bulging tummy....who do you think will get the attention....hmmmm.....sounds like a good motivation....naaaah....i don't get affected by that anymore.....i'm so used to being ignored because of that already.....i have experienced that too many times that i'm numb already (play music...tan tan tanananananananan tan tan ta nan)....lol.....as in bwahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.........

hmmm.......i can't think of any other reason....do i need to really have a reson to lose weight.....do i really need to be motivated....maybe.....maybe not....maybe i just need to put that thing in my head and hopefully it will understand that i need to do it....do i need to do it....hell yes...i need to do it very badly....i'll do it now...hay....whatever.....in the mean time, i need to go to the canteen....why?.....duh....i haven't had dessert pa kaya.....

Thursday, August 12, 2010

pnoy declares august 23 regular working holiday -- goodbye to arroyo's holiday economics

it's official....august 23, 2010 is a holiday.....a regular WORKING holiday.....i just got this information on the net....our president  noynoy aquino reportedly chose to celebrate the death anniversary of his father on his actual death day which is august 21....it's a saturday.....

last year, then president gloria macapagal arroyo declared august 23 as a holiday -- part of her holiday economics....i wonder if her being the one who declared this is the reason why it was changed....it appears that president noynoy has a ddiferent reason...in fairness...it was said that he is trying to avoid the imposition of  unnecessary burden upon the employers, ensure the continuity of government, business, and commercial transaction, promote productivity, while at the same time preserve the solemnity of the observance....this came from lacierda which i got from yahoo.....

what is a regular working holiday?....based on what happened during the president's first sona, employees need to report to work...so why is it called a holiday?.....i don't know.....do employees get additional pay?.....i don't know.....if they do then the first reason why that laciera gave will not be achieved (unnecessary finanacial burden...).....this is confusing in a way....besides, if august 21 is already a non-working holiday, why declare august 23 a regular working holiday....if it is going to be celebrated already on the actual day, what is the point of doing it again on the 23rd....can it not be just one?....august 21 as non-working holiday or august 23 as non-working holiday....no in-betweens....(i would prefer august 23 to be non-working holiday =>)........

what do you guys think......

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

late for late sunday mass

last sunday i heard mass at 9 pm....i know it's already late....it would have been better if i went to church in the morning.....but anyway....i arrived at the st. joseph the worker's parish in palanan, makati city...i arrived there on time....i sat in one of the pews that is vacant.....in front of i saw a couple who brought along their pet dog with them.....it was i think a shitzu.....anyway, maybe they just do not want to leave their baby behind.....then while the priest was giving his homily another couple came and sat on the same pew i was occupying....i thought i was already late (that is for going to the last mass for the day)....imagine you have put the mass as perhaps as your last activity for the day and you still arrive late.....i was bad....i was not focusing on the mass....i was busy judging others.....so i tried to focus on the homily....it was hard.....the priest is a foreigner....his accent was thick....but just the same i tried to focus.....again, it was hard....

why am i writing this....i don't know....i was just wondering why there are still many of us who put up to the last part of the day important obligations like participating in the mass.....hmmm..... 

Monday, August 9, 2010

wifi on-board -- jac liner from lucena to lrt taft

i came from quezon province last weekend...i went there to visit my father....on my way back here to manila i rode a jac liner bus from sm lucena....the moment i sat on my seat i saw the sinage in front...it says wifi on-board...i checked my phone and found that there really is wifi connection although it is secured....since they are still waiting for more passengers, the bus driver and his conductor was outside....i went outside to ask them if wifi connection is free and if it is, what is the password....according to them wifi is free for alltheir pasengers.....they gave me the password and the conductor even showed me where the router is....i hopped back in and started 'facebooking' (yes, that's the term they use to describe when you are doing something on facebook)...initially the connection wasn't fast....i had trouble uploading photos...you see i love uploading photos from my cellphone (samsun galaxy spica with its android os).....it's faster than connecting the phone to a laptop....anyway, while we were traveling lready connection became better....i evendecided to take out my laptop and check my emails....i also checkd this blog site and my other one (http://eatallyoucanallyoucaneat.blogspot.com)/ ...i even checked my nuffnang account to know how many visitors i had  that day....

the connection was good throughout the entire trip....it was really a blessing because traffic was heavy that day....there were several roadworks along the way....only one lane was being used....and bad luck....our side always gets stopped to give to the other side.....i was already pissed because i had an affair to attend but i was running really,really late due to heavy traffick....had it not been for the wifi i would have exploded....
whoever thought of putting wifi on-board jac liner was a genius.....super great idea...surfiing the net is a better alternative to watching movies they show on their small tv....they show the same movies over and over....(besides, i think they use pirated dvd's so i'd rather that they stopped showing those films)....

i do hope there will also be wifi connection on taxis and jeepneys haha....no, let me correct that....not jeepneys....imagine if there is wifi a lot of commuters will be tempted to use their cellphones....this would attract a lot of snatchers......what they need to put in jeepneys are cctv's haha....

the next time you ride a provincial bus look for the new ones that has wifi on-board....you'll really enjoy.....try jac liner....they have buses going to lucena quezon, batangas and binan, laguna.....they have stations in pasay (near lrt buendia besides a disco called nirvana) and quezon city (near lrt gma-kamuning....in between edsa cor kamias and edsa cor east avenue)....

Friday, August 6, 2010

jejemon -- wH@t'zz tH3 fUzz

do you remember when the 'jejemon' craze started?.....i don't......one day i just heard them being featured in tv shows....the first time saw a feature about the 'jejemons' was in jessica soho's show on the kapuso chanel....kapuso mo jessica soho....then they were featured in a lot of talk shows soon after.....

who or what are 'jejemons'?.....wikipedia (yes they reached that level where wikipedia devotes precious internet space just to discuss them) defines jejemons this way:

 Jejemon (IPA: ['dÊ’É›dÊ’É›mon]) is a pop culture phenomenon in the Philippines. Jejemons are defined by Urban Dictionary as those "who has managed to subvert the English language to the point of incomprehensibility and online lynch squads."[1] A Jejemon is described as one of a "new breed of hipsters who have developed not only their own language and written text but also their own sub-culture and fashion."

most jejemons are teenagers....their name supposedly came to be because of their penchant to use 'jejeje' instead of 'hehehe' to denote laughter in sms or status messages in social networking sites....the mon was supposed to be from 'monsters' much like the japanese anime pokemon.....

'jejemons' have developed their own 'language' or way of communicating....aside from replacing h with j they also use letters that are not often used like z and x....for example 'musta (short for kumusta which means 'how are you') is written as mUsZt@h..... notice that not only was w, z and h added but @ was used instead of a...and also notice that some letters were capitalized....sometimes they also usenumbers to replace letters.....the number 3 is used as e....'jejeje' is sometimes spelled as j3j3j3.....it was thought that their manner of texting was developed to maximize the character allocation of cellphones for sms.....like sending ko instead of ako which means me) or u instead of you.....maybe it did start from that....but you would see now that instead of making words shorter, they make them longer and difficult to understand.....ako for example is spelled as aQcKuHh (saw this in wikipedia)....u is spelled as yUHh.....

more often than not, sms messages from 'jejemons' are confusing....to non-jejemons, their text messages are weird, absurd....

but the 'jejemon' culture has gone beyond text messaging....they now have thier own fashion styles....i can't really describe what they wear.....maybe i could say they look rather weird.....

you will know that the  'jejemon' culture is really popular because of the existence of another group whose only purpose is to fight 'jejemon'.....the group is called 'jejebusters'.....well, maybe i'm wrong in saying that all they want is to fight 'jejemons'....maybe they have others like ensuring that the young really learn how to spell right....but the point is, their creation is an indication that the 'jejemons' have arrived...

so when did the craze start?......i don't know.....they got their name only recently....but i know they've been around for a long, long time already....here is a little secret....when i was in 4th year high school in the province we love having shirts printed whenever there are occasions.....foundation day, intrams, seniors' week, feast of the patron saint of the barangay, feast of the patron saint of the town.....and most of the time, we have our names printed at the back......some of our classmates, instead of having their names spelled correctly will intentionally change it to look 'good'....i cannot remember the exact spelling but here are some examples that were possibly used at that time.....kha-ren....lho-rraynne....oh there's one that i remember....but i won't mention the real name so you'll have something to think about....seychelle......

oh, by the way, can  you guess how my name was spelled?.........

Saturday, July 31, 2010

sisig pasta - an experiment

i wanted to prepare kung pao noodles this evening...i was so bent on cooking it that i felt disappointed when i didn't see the flavoring i needed....but not to disappoint my housemates who heard i was going to cook pasta, i decided to continue with cooking spaghetti with a unique sauce....i didn't know any unique sauce so i thought of experimenting....then i thought of sisig....i'll use sisig as the sauce....hmmmm.....pork....check....onions....check....garlic....check....seasoning.....check....whatelese.....if i only use these it would be boring....ah.....carrots....check....zuccini (how do you spell this word?)....check....cauliflower....X...puregold has no cauliflower....arrrggghhh....peanuts....check....

its now time to cook sisig pasta.....will they like it?.....i'll keep you posted....wish me luck.....

the sisig pasta

okay.....it wasn't really easy preparing that....i was kind of unsure of how it will taste so i went easy on the onions.....it turned out well....it was plain looking though....it was pale.....but the good thing is they said they liked it....which is enough for me.....



Friday, July 30, 2010

observation....eyes, ears, nose, tongue, skin

observation....one science book defines observation as a process of using your five senses....

i love observing people....whenever i am in a coffee shop i make it a point to look at other coffee drinkers...i observe how they sip their coffee....how they stir their coffee afte putting sugar....if they will add sugar first or cream...i observe how they react when their dates come late...i observe how they greet friends who arrive later than them...i try to see how they call waiters...do they just wave their hands or do they call them out loud...i try to see who looks at name plates of servers and call them by their names...i try to find out who smiles or says thank you when their coffee is served...i try to see who leaves tip....

by observing i learn a lot of things...i learn how certain actions are received by others...i learn why people react like this or that...i learn what makes other peple smile...i learn what makes others raise their eyebrows...

i observe these things not to invade their privacy....i observe because i want to improve my own behavior...i know i already my own set of values....values that have been inculcated by my parents....my teachers....my friends....some i learned from books.....but even then, i believe it is still important for us to continue to learn new things so we can adapt....so we can improve...i don't know about but i really enjoy watching other people's behavior.....

oh...i forgot...i also like looking at others because a lot of times they make me laugh...no, i just do this in secret....

i'm not making sense....i know....anyway, i would love to see how you would react when you read this...hmmm.....if only i could....wink 

Friday, July 9, 2010

EQUUS - live in manila

i had the chance to watch the preview of EQUUS last night...yes, that play where Daniel Radcliff did a full monty in the west end and broadway productions...i was lucky i got invited to the preview whose audience was composed mostly of members of the press, theatre actors and family and friends of the cast members...what made it even more special was that ms. lea salonga also watched last night...we were on the same row although she was at the lower orchestra - center while i was on the right...anyway, the philippine production of EQUUS will officially open tonight (onstage, greenbelt 1)...

the play is about the encounter of a psychiatrist named martin dysart and a 17 year old boy named alan strang...the way i understood it, dysart is a respected psychiatrist while alan is a behaviorally challenged boy, to say the least...alan did a horrible thing with the six horses he was taking care of in the stables of harry dalton...he was brought to dysart after the lawyer (magistrate) who represented him succesfully dodged the possibility of him being brought to jail...dysart tried to unearth the reason behind alan's actions...the result was a psychological thriller that surely awakened/shocked/bothered/excited everyone in the audience including me...

the two lead stars were for me very good...miguel faustmann who played the role of dysart was convincing...on stage he was really a psychiatrist...marco manalac was really good as the young boy full of angst...the moment he entered the stage singing the jingle of a mint gum fom a tv commercial with clenched fists, you would already know that the role he is playing is that of a broken person...his acting was consistent...he can smoothly move from a person who is angry to someone who is frustrated to someone who just wants to mask his true emotions...you could tell whether what he was saying was a recollection from alan's recent past or from some five years ago...he was intense...every time marco tenses up his muscles i could feel it as if was he standing right next to me...and his stare...penetrating...i particularly liked the scene that capped off the first act...there was so much emotions coming out of the boy...i couldn't understand what he was saying anymore because of the loud sound but i could understand how or what alan was supposed to be feeling...of course the scene where he blinded the horses with the hoof pick was also thrilling...one more thing that made the scene memorable was the fact that marco was naked thorughout this scene...this is probably the longest nudity i've ever seen in a play...around 10 - 15 minutes if i'm not mistake...pheona baranda who played jill, his partner in that scene was also naked for a long time...there was even a part where marco was on top of pheona...such brave souls they are...the nudity was much talked about during daniel radcliff's stint in the west end production of EQUUS so i thought that the nudity in the local production would be a stealer...but you know what, because of the intensity of marco's acting, and pheona's as well, you would almost forget that their reproductive organs are there totally exposed for everyone to see (or critisize)...

the other actors were also good...tami monsod who played marco's mom dora strang was good as expected...the guys who played horses, especially the one who played the lead horse nuggets, should also be given credits because it's not easy walking on stage on high horseshoes...

i think audie gemora directed the play really well...lighting design (by john batalla) was also good...the red lights prominent during the last scene of act 1 was really effective...set design (by denis lagdameo) and set excution (by adul lasin) was also good...they used just a few pieces but the overall effect of the stage was not left wanting...the sound design (jethro joaquin) was also okay but it is the sound system which i think they need to improve on...there were a few times where i didn't understand what the actors were saying especially during the early parts of act 2...


EQUUS by the Repertory Philippines has a limited run

July 9, 10, 16, 17, 23, 24 - 8:00 pm
July 10, 11, 17, 18, 24, 25, - 3:30 pm

onstage, greenbelt 1
makati city

Thursday, July 8, 2010

CATS with Ms. LEA SALONGA -- Live in Manila

I have always wanted to watch a play or musical with our very own Ms. Lea Salonga in it. I was not lucky when Miss Saigon was shown here in Manila. I got to watch it but it was not Ms. Salonga playing Kim. Anyway, another chance is here......CATS.....I hope I would see Ms. Salonga this time even if she will be on stage for a few minutes. Even that short time would already be great for me. Great! Purrrr....fect!

Anyway, here are the details for the show.

CATS

with Ms. Lea Salonga as Grizabella

by T.S. Eliot
Music by Andrew Lloyd Webber
based on "Old Possum's Book of Practical Cats"

showing at Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo, CCP
starting July 24

Ticket Prices:



Matinee

SAT (3:00pm)

SUN (2:30pm)

PhP7000 PhP5000 PhP3500 PhP2000 PhP1000



Evenings

TUE, WED, THU (8:00pm)

SUN (7:30pm)

PhP6000 PhP4500 PhP3000 PhP1500 PhP750



Evenings

FRI, SAT (8:00pm)

PhP7000 PhP5000 PhP3500 PhP2000 Php1000



Ticket Prices are exclusive of Ticketworld fees.



SHOW DATES (as of April 2010)

SAT July 24 Matinee

SAT July 24 Evening

SUN July 25 Matinee

SUN July 25 Evening

TUE July 27 Evening

WED July 28 Evening

THU July 29 Evening

FRI July 30 Evening

SAT July 31 Matinee

SAT July 31 Evening

SUN August 1 Matinee

SUN August 1 Evening

TUE August 3 Evening

WED August 4 Evening

THU August 5 Evening

FRI August 6 Evening

SAT August 7 Matinee

SAT August 7 Evening

SUN August 8 Matinee

SUN August 8 Evening

TUE August 10 Evening

WED August 11 Evening

THU August 12 Evening

FRI August 13 Evening

SAT August 14 Matinee

SAT August 14 Evening

SUN August 15 Matinee

SUN August 15 Evening

for more information, visit the following

http://facebook.com/catsinmanila
http://catsinmanila.tumblr.com/

Hope to see you there!

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

waiting

Sometimes we find ourselves in situations where we cannot do anything but wait. We are left with no better choice but to stay where we’re at and wait for whatever is going to happen next.

For example you arrive at the airport late and you miss your flight. You cannot do anything but wait for the next available flight and hope that it is not yet fully booked or wish that one of the passengers will also be late or will not show up. Well, waiting is not really the only choice left here. You can actually opt to just leave the airport and forget about leaving entirely. But if you do that you will never be able to do what you actually set out to do. Or you can take the boat or the bus. But that will definitely take you longer.

Here is another example. You applied for a job and the last person who interviewed you told you the line “Do not call us, we will call you”. Here you are also not left with any other choice but to wait. You cannot call them everyday to follow up your application status because if you do that they might get annoyed with you and reject you. You can actually look for other jobs while waiting but if you are really bent on getting this job, your only recourse is to wait for their call.

Here’s another one. You finally find the person whom you feel you are going to love for the rest of your life. Unfortunately you find out that it is not yet possible. Either he or she is not yet available or your situation is such that you cannot be together yet (he or she is still not ready, he or she is still too young, he or she is still busy with other concerns, etc). You cannot do anything but wait for him or her to be available (i.e. break-up with his or her present partner -- tsk, tsk…wag ganon) or wait for the situation to clear up for the both of you.

Sometimes waiting can be too tiring. Doing nothing can really be a pain in the butt. But if you think that what you are waiting for is really the best thing for you then go for it. It is always better to wait than to settle for the second best. The danger here, though, is that there is a possibility that you are waiting for nothing. But if that happens, do not despair. That just means that what you were waiting for which you thought was the best was not really the right one for you. Drop it! Come to think of it, if this happens, the second best now becomes the ‘real’ best, right?

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

on loving too much

One of the nice things about facebook is you get to know where your friends are at the moment. By this I do not mean where they are physically at but how they are doing in their life or what they are experiencing at the moment.

An hour ago a friend of mine wrote as her status message the line “Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you and you meant nothing to him.” I feel for her because I know she is the type who really gives her all when she falls in love.

Sometimes we meet people who really make us go all out without emotions. Sometimes they consciously do things to make us really give our all but there are also instances when they do things which invoke the same effect without really intending to. I don’t know which is more painful because for me, either way we can get really hurt. So what do we do to protect ourselves?

I think the best thing to do is to prevent us from giving everything. It is for our own protection if we keep something for ourselves. But what do we keep, you might ask. For me it is definitely not love. We should love fully. It is the right thing to do. We should not hold back on loving. What we should keep is our dignity. We can keep this by not being to OA with the way we give our love. For example, I know of people who think that to show their love to another person they lavish them with gifts. You do not need to be a ‘sugar mommy’ or ‘sugar daddy’ just to show that you care. Don’t tell me you give gifts freely so you can’t be considered a ‘sugar mommy’ or ‘sugar daddy’. At the end of the day you still look as such. Also, I know of people who ‘stalks’ the person they love. They call every time. They visit every time. By doing this you will look desperate. You will look like a dog following his master. You don’t want that for sure. And lastly, I know there are people who give their whole being as an expression of their love. I do not think I need to explain this further. You know what I mean.

At the end of the day, if you give your all, you will not have anything left if that person decides to ignore you or dump you. It is like putting out all your money in one business. If your business fails, you won’t have anything to start with again. Think about it.

Monday, June 7, 2010

a major change

now that the election fever is over this blogsite will take on a new look...starting today you will read blogs that are not solely related to politics...what you will read here are blogs that are based on what i see around, what i hear from people close to me or what my crazy imagination can conjure....

i'll start with a short post that you can interpret any way you want...bahala na kayo....here it goes.....


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I have a friend who once told me that she is happy being single and that she has no plans of changing her status in the near future. She told me she is happy because being single is less complicated than being attached to someone. This is quite understandable because when you get involved with somebody you have to make a lot of adjustments. There are certain things that you enjoy that you cannot do anymore.

Unfortunately, fate can really be playful at times. Just when you thought that you are already decided on staying single, you meet somebody who will tempt you to break that resolve. When you meet that person, what is the right thing to do? Do you give in? Do you take the risk? Do you turn your back? Do you walk away?

Sunday, May 16, 2010

My Opinion Why Mayor Binay is Leading the VP Race

I am no political analyst but here are my thoughts why Makati Mayor Jejomar Binay is leading the vice-presidential race.

1. He was focused in his campaign. He spent the entire three months campaining to become vice-president. Sen. Mar Roxas on the other hand was sidetracked by Sen. Aquino's bid for presidency. I think most of the efforts of his party was on Sen. Aquino because they wanted him to win so badly. Sen. Roxas was leading the surveys for the longest time and they probably thought that his closest rival will not be able to catch up.

2. There are a lot of people working in Makati and a lot of them are not really from Makati. Some are from the provinces. Naturally, these employees see what Mayor Binay does for the people of Makati and surely, when they go home, they share these stories with their relatives and friends. They may not have campaigned for him but their good stories about the Mayor helped.

3. Mayor Binay is number one in the ballot. This definitely had its effect in the results. The effect may be small but but in a closely contested race such as this, every small thing counts. Many may say that ones position in the ballot has no significant effect but I say otherwise. Why do you think many party list groups chose names that start with A? They all wanted to be first on the list. And why do you think that during the early parts of the counting when the reporters still read votes for the disqualified candidate Acosta there were precincts where he got one or two votes while Perlas, delos Reyes and even Madrigal got nothing? Because he was number one in the ballot. There are people who cannot read so they probably just shaded the first circle on the list.

These are just my thoughts about the VP race. I dont know what the experts will say but I think some of these make sense.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

May 2010 Elections: Congratulations to the winners and Kudos to the teachers

"Panawagan sa Lahat... IGALANG ang DESISYON at INSTITUSYON NG HALALAN... Let's STAND to MAKE a BIG DIFFERENCE when EVERYONE ELSE IS SPREADING NEGATIVITY… - GIBO TEODORO"

I just copied this line from facebook. This was posted as a status message of a friend who is supporting Noynoy. It is nice to see that most of us have all matured when it comes to the elections. We may not be supporting a particular candidate but if we see that they did something good we recognize it.

I totally agree that we should all look at the positive side of things in this matter. Instead of spreading negativity, let us just respect the results of the elections. Let us respect the decision of the MAJORITY! That is the essence of DEMOCRACY!

My candidate may have lost in the elections but hey, we did our best! I tried, in my own little way, to convince others to vote for my candidate. My efforts turned out to be not enough. A few hours after precincts closed, we can already see that we are losing. Did that make me sad? Of course it did. But then again I’d like to say that I respect the choice of the majority. Why? Because I saw on tv a lot of news about the conduct of the elections and in my opinion it was generally peaceful and the results acceptable. There was no sign of massive cheating. There was violence but not as much as what I thought would happen. There were PCOS machines that failed. They were extensively discussed in the news. It appeared that a lot of the machines failed. But at the end of the whole thing it turned out that only less than 1 % of the machines failed. So why should I complain? Why should I not believe in the results?

Do I now drop my support for G1bo? NO! He is still for me a good leader and I believe he will have his chance next time. Mr. Teodoro, I look forward to that time when I can already call Mr. President.

Come July 1 we will have a new president. He is Noynoy Aquino. As a good citizen I will pray that he will not fail us. I will pray that he will not fail the majority of the Filipinos who showed their trust in him. May God bless you and our country Mr. Aquino. I also would like to say that Villar has gained pogi points from me for being man enough to concede and accept the decision of the majority. That act must have been very difficult for him but he still did it. That is an honorable thing, Mr. Villar. As for Erap, I can stay he is really amazing. Imagine, after all the issues that he has gone through he still managed to convince many Filipinos to vote for him. He still has that charisma that if used properly can unite many Filipinos. I hope Mr. Estrada, you will use your charisma to help bring peace in our land. Gordon, like G1bo is also someone I have high respect for. I hope that he will still continue to serve in the government because he is someone I know who really fits in the executive department. Mr. Gordon, like G1bo, you will have your chance to prove your worth. For the Mr. Villanueva, Ms. Madrigal, Mr. Perlas and Mr. de los Reyes, I admire you all for your courage. May you be blessed for all the good things you have planned for the Filipinos.

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To the teachers who sat as Board of Election Inspectors, the highest honors for you SIRs and MA’Ams. You did a great job! We waited in line for hours. Many were complaining. Some even have the guts to blame you for the slow pacing of the elections. But what they do not understand is that you’ve been sitting, standing, reading, signing, etc. far longer than the time we spent waiting in line. What they do not understand is the pressure you must all be experiencing just to make sure that nothing wrong will happen as you do your duties as good citizens of our country. What they do not understand is that you have pressures coming from the different parties and the Comelec itself. What they do not understand is you are experiencing pressures from the media. What they do not understand is that you are just doing your job the best that you can without getting much in return. You may have been paid for sitting as BEIs but I know what ever you got is not even enough to pamper yourselves in a spa after working for more that 12 hours.

I know that most of you were trained for only a few times and most of you were as confused as we were about the whole thing. But you still woke at up at 3 in the morning to go to the Comelec office early. You still went to the precincts that you know is going to be very hot because of the summer heat. You still went to the precincts even if you know that some people will say bad things about you. I say hats off to all of you!

To the teachers in the precinct where I voted this is what I have to say “I may have waited for four long hours but I still thank you because if you were not there I probably would have waited longer.”

To the two teachers in my department and another friend who also sat as BEIs “Congratulations for being part of history.”

To the teacher (from the South) who embraced the PCOS machine and hid it when there was threat to it “Ma’am, you are a hero. You have such courage that I hope all of us, teachers, will have.”

This is something new to all of us. Suportahan na lang natin sila.

Friday, May 7, 2010

The Value of My Vote

A vote for G1bo is a vote for Villar!

What? Are you serious? Where did this come from? Why are they saying this crap?

I could only think of two possible reasons

1) They dislike Villar that much. They do not want him to win so they want people who are voting for those who are not popular in surveys to just vote for the candidates who have better chances of winning.

2) They are threatened with the popularity of G1bo (which they refuse to admit because they believe in their own surveys too much -- and sadly many other supposedly intelligent individuals got brainwashed to believe in also). They want it to appear that they are against Villar so they use him in this dirty tactic but in reality they are just afraid of G1bo. They want to say don't vote for G1bo but they do not want to say it directly so they just resort to making people think that they will just be wasting their votes if they vote for G1bo.

I maybe wrong in saying that G1bo is popular. Their surveys may really be correct. But does that mean that I will give away my vote to somebody else so as not to waste it? No! Doing that would make me someone like those traitors during the Spaniards' time who gave away identities of Filipinos fighting for our country's freedom.

Is a vote for Gibo equivalent to a vote for Villar? No! A vote for somebody I do not truly and honestly beleive in is a vote for our country's way to 6 years of poverty, corruption, division, destruction.....

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Lucy Torres - Gomez for Congresswoman

I read in PEP (Philippine Entertainment Portal) that Comelec has made its final decision regarding Richard's disqualification case. Now, the actor's wife (Lucy Torres Gomez)will be running in his place. Hmmmmm....it would be nice to see a fresh face at the House of Representatives....I wonder if they will be opening the session halls to fans....are there other celebrities aside from the pretty Lucy Torres Gomez running for congress?...oh there is Manny Pacquiao....who else?.....

The Tale of a "Psychology": Isa akong Psychology says Marian Rivera

According to Marian Rivera "isa po akong psychology".

Even a child would know that there is something wrong with that statement.

A lot of people made comments about it on the net. They are saying she is 'bobo', 'tanga', etc. She really made a mistake. There is no question about it. Maybe she wanted to say "isa akong psychology graduate". Sometimes we think faster than we speak. Sometimes our thoughts are already far so we tend to miss out on saying some important words. Sometimes, we also make shortcuts. Read this: Boy1: Anong trabaho mo? Boy2: sa call center. What again? The question was 'what' and not 'where' but saying sa call center is shorter and simpler than saying call center agent. When you hear that he is working in a call center you can safely assume that he is someone who makes or receives calls. Anyway, to those who are calling her bobo, i would like to ask you to try to recall every sentence you have said in your lifetime and see if this has never happened to you. Even the most intelligent person commits this mistake. I do not think that this has something to do with a person's intelligence. It is not the same as saying "she are bobo" or "she should not have speaked". What happened to her was just a case of being careless with words. We sometimes commit "mitsakes" also so let us not be too mayabang. Read my entries and you will see mistakes. Most of them I didn't have time to edit and even if I did there is still a chance there will be mistakes. Read the comments about the issue posted in other sites and you will also find mistakes. Now tell me who is bobo.

Am I a fan of Marian? Not really but I like her. So give her a break. For crying outloud she is not even running for any public office. Now go and look at the profiles of the candidates. That's where we should really be more critical.

By the way, let us not associate what happened to her with Noynoy. Though I am also not a fan of Noynoy I believe the incident has got nothing to do with him. Marian is just a supporter.

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the first time i heard i joined the others laughing because i thought it was really bad.....then while i was reading my report for the board i saw a lot of mistakes (typo and s-v agreement)....oooopppppsss.....sorry.....

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

May 10, 2010 Elections: Funny Moments

I know that there are a lot of actors and actresses running for government office this 2010 but I didn’t know that one of Kuya Germs’ men is also running. Did you know that Shalala is running? Last week I saw a poster with Shalala’s picture on it. I got curious so I looked closer at the poster. Wheeeew! The man in picture, it turns out, is not Shalala. The man running for Councilor in Makati just looks like Shalala in that picture.

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Do you still remember Jobelle Salvador? She used to be an actress. I think she was part of the movie Bagets with Aga Muhlach and Herbert Bautista. Anyway, I saw another poster that caught my attention. The lady in the poster looked like Jobelle Salvador. I thought this was just like the case of Shalala. Maybe the candidate just looked like her but not actually her. So again I went for a closer look. Boy was I surprised. It really is Jobelle Salvador in that poster. She is running for Vice-Mayor, the running mate of Mayoralty candidate Erwin Genuino. Seeing her poster made me wonder where Mia Prats is. She was also an actress during Jobelle’s time. It would have been more fun if Makati Mayoralty candidate Ernesto Mercado got her as his running mate.

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Gary Estrada is running as Board Member of Quezon Province. He still looks handsome in his individual campaign posters. He is cleanly shaven and his hair is neatly styled. He also did not forget to put on a big billboard smile. However, when I saw a poster showing him with his party mates, I noticed that he didn’t look as good. He could surely use Garnier light cream for the dark spots around his eyes. Or the poster could use some Photoshop-ping. Was the picture in his individual poster from his showbiz days?

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While waiting for a cab this morning I saw headlines of tabloids. One says Noynoy is a chain smoker. So what? I mean there are other more important issues to focus on. Sorry to those advocating good health or healthy lifestyle. I do not mean to belittle the concerns about smoking and its effects. It’s just that I think it should not be made as big a deal as say how many bills he has authored in congress or how many times he has been late or absent in senate meetings. Making his smoking habit a big issue is like making a big deal out of what shirt he wears. Let us leave that to his sister Kris who I must say is very good in the area of image building.

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I also saw in the tabloids that there are people who are saying that the PCOS are all set to make Gibo win. Now that a lot of Gibo’s supporters are already speaking up and proving that Gibo can win in spite of survey results, they are setting the minds of Filipinos into believing that if he does win there was cheating. That is rather unfair. I’m telling you there are a lot of people supporting Gibo. They may not be as vocal as the supporters of the two front-runners but they are just out there silently campaigning for Gibo in areas where it really matters like public markets, barangay halls, basketball gyms, etc.

From Wikipedia:
The term mind control (also known as brainwashing, coercive persuasion, thought control, or thought reform) refers to a process[in which a group or individual "systematically uses unethically manipulative methods to persuade others to conform to the wishes of the manipulator(s), often to the detriment of the person being manipulated". The term has been applied to any tactic, psychological or otherwise, which can be seen as subverting an individual's sense of control over their own thinking, behavior, emotions or decision making.

Some people are saying things like the PCOS machines have been tampered with and will make Gibo win. Is this what they really want to say? I don’t think so. They just want people to think that if Gibo wins, he cheated.

Here is another example of brainwashing: someone said businessmen will pullout their businesses in the country if I lose in this election. Did those businessmen really say that or the person who said this line just want to ‘give idea’ to them. Do not search the net. The situation in this example did not really happen (although it sounds pretty much like something that one candidate said). I just made that up to make you understand what brainwashing is. Oh common! Don’t tell me you still do not understand because if you don’t that means my brainwashing technique is not working. Ahaha.

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Somebody is convincing me to vote for Adel Tamano for senator. I said okay. Being Dr. Vicky Belo’s lawyer, if he wins he could make a law reducing the price of liposuction to make it accessible to poor fat Filipinos. It can be something like the Cheaper Medicines Act. He may even make a law compelling insurance companies to include cosmetic surgeries and (health and) beauty enhancement procedures in the coverage of health cards. Don’t you think that’s beautiful? He could make Dr. Belo as the secretary of Department of Health and Dr. Hayden Kho as the chairman of the Optical Media Board. Hmmm….will he make Careless Whisper as our National Anthem? Naaaa…I don’t think so!

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Did you know that Sen. Ramon Bong Revilla is not listed under R? He is number 8 in the ballot because he is listed under B as if saying that Bong Revilla and not just Revilla is his last name. Tayo’y mag [Otso-Otso].... [Gibo 8 – Bong 8]….GiBong!! Toink!

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Have you heard of Sharon Cuneta’s endorsement of Neric Acosta? She calls him a teacher. In his infomercial before the campaign period started Mr. Acosta also identified himself as Teacher Neric Acosta. When I was looking at his profile I found out that he never studied education or at least the profiles I read didn’t say so. So why are they calling him a teacher. After searching further, I found out that he is an associate professor in two universities here in Manila. So he is really a teacher albeit not a basic education (elementary and high school) teacher as what I thought when I heard his ads. I’m still hoping that someday there will be a basic education teacher who will sit as one of our senators. But just the same Acosta is a teacher so I hope he will represent teachers in the senate well. Be good in the senate, sir!

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When a candidate uses “Kidlat” as his campaign name or moniker or nickname or alias or whatever you call it, does it mean that he can produce lighting anytime he wants to? Or can he strike terrorists with lighting to put a stop to their wrongdoings? Why do you think Perfecto Yasay calls himself Kidlat?


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This blog may sound like I’m for Gibo. Hmmm. Maybe because I am for Gibo. Haha. But again, I respect all those people who are going to vote for who they like despite the odds because you are standing up for what you think is right (kahit magkakaiba tayo). Just remember what I said in my previous entry, vote for who you like whether they are popular in surveys or not. Do not be swayed by people saying you are wasting your vote because your candidate is gonna lose. They are the ones wasting their votes. Mabuhay kayo.

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I heard Ruffa Gutierrez has turned green. Anyway, this has nothing to do with her change of heart. This is about what was written in newspaper the other day. She said her Mom is a staunch supporter of Gibo. She said she saw her Mom the other day wearing all green – green blouse, green choose and green Balenciaga bag. The brand has to be identified? Hahaha cute Ruffa.