I Miss You

It’s been a while since we last had a good conversation over BBM. I used to enjoy our exchange of messages. It was always fun chatting with you. If I remember it right, I am always the one who start the conversation but it didn’t matter because you would always respond well. Those were really happy days for me. Until all of a sudden you lost interest in replying.

A couple of weeks ago you seemed uninterested. So I responded according to how I felt was right. I also backed away a little. For a couple of days I didn’t send you messages. Then when I felt or I thought it was the right time I started sending you BBMs again. Unfortunately those attempts were left unanswered. It’s as if I made a call and got “the number you dialed is either unattended or out of coverage area” type of response. I couldn’t understand why a simple hi or hello because so difficult for you to type.

I then gave space for a few days thinking that somehow you’ll miss the exchanges we used to have and respond again. But boy was I terribly wrong. When  I sent you  BBMs again you still didn’t reply.

Then a little birdie told me that you now have a new BB friend. I also learned you send that new friend messages on a regular basis. By regular I mean morning, noon and evening. Is that the reason why you don’t answer me anymore? Wow! How difficult is it to type hi or hello? Oh, please don’t tell me you don’t have time.

Learning that was really painful, you know. It’s as if I suddenly became invisible – or maybe even nonexistent. It was hard when I finally realized that my value to you is so small that you don’t even want to say hi anymore. I mean I would probably understand if the frequency becomes less but to totally remove it altogether is really downright painful if not insulting.

It’s funny that when you started this no-response stance, I found a new friend who would always send text messages. If you think about it, our exchanges are actually better than ours. I mean this friend is the once who initiates the conversation. Never did I start the exchanges. Good morning! O kumain ka na ha. Drink lots of water para hindi manghihina. Rest ka na. Gabi ka na naman uuwi magtaxi ka na. Meme na ko, meme ka na rin – messanges I never got from you. You never did ask me if Im doing okay or not.

This new thing is very much welcome, if you must know. I really appreciate it. It fills the void. But it’s different. It’s nothing similar to what we had. And really, what I have with this new friend does not erase the fact that I miss our exchanges. I miss our conversations. I miss the jokes you give. I miss the pang-aasar. I miss the nonsense stuff we talk about. I miss you. I. MISS. YOU.

I do not want to beg you to do the things you used to do. I do not want to beg you to ‘comeback’ so we could do things we used to enjoy (or was it only I who enjoyed then). I do not want to do these things because it would be meaningless if you were just forced to do it. But heavens I’m hoping you would find it in your heart to miss the things we had and comeback.

Please!

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Sino ba dapat mauna? Who should make the first move?

Alam ko namang may pagitan sa ating dalawa ngayon. Tingin ko nga alam mo rin na may pagitan sa atin. Alam ko nung una sinubukan kon punan ang pagitan na yun. I tried to bridge that gap. I tried to fill that void between us. But you ignered it. Di mo man lang pinansin kahit kaunti. I'm not sure if you were just busy then. Baka naman nagmamatigas ka lang. But then ngayon pagnagkikita tayo parang hi and hello na lang. There are awkwards moments nga when I wan to say something but I  hesitate. And during those moments I feel you feel the same thing. Naghihintayan ba tayo kung sino ang mauuna? We do not know who should make the first move. Ako parang gusto ko mauna pero parang mas magiging satisfying kung ikaw kasi that would mean what we used to have is really important to you. Kasi pag ako ulit parang ako lang naman ang natutuwa eh. Tsaka baka  kasi you've already become so sanay that ako lagi magpapakumbaba.

I wish something, someone, basta, would intervene. Sana mag-conspire ang hangin, lupa, ulan, araw para we could be in a situation that who started filling the gap wouldn't matter. Yun bang wala na tayong choice but to talk like we used -- like the way I want to, like the way I really enjoyed and secretly believed that you also enjoyed.  Baka naman kasi ako lang talaga ang may gusto at napipilitan ka lang before. Ewan.

It's really hard kasi when there are so many things that remain unclear. Wait! Ako lang pala ang nag-iisip na things are unclear. When this whatever this is started you said I have nothing to expect. I was okay with that. But then the things we do -- how you responded to me and my moves -- made me think that baka naman there is something to hope for. Nag-a-assume lang ba ako? Baka. Sana naman hindi.

I  should be the one to initiate something so we could talk about this again. I know I should because you are not required to and I know you wont event if you need to. But you know I'm afraid to ask. You know why? Because I'm afraid that you would ask that we just put an end to all this para wala ng reason para may pagdududa. Baka instead of having whatever little thing we have going on eh mawala pa ang lahat.

I don't know what to do. I do not know anything anymore. Bahala na si Batman.

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Sino ba kasing may sabing umasa?!

Me: Hi!
You: Hello!
M: How are you? Nakauwi ka na ba?
Y: Yup.Kanina pa.
M: Ano ginagawa mo?
Y: Nood tv. Facebook.
M: Kumain ka na?
Y: Hindi pa eh. Maya na. Tapusin ko muna to.
M: Wag ka pagutom ha.
Y: Okie.
M: =)

We do this everyday. We exchange messages several times a day. Nakakatuwang isipin na nagrerespond talaga sya sa mga 'pa-cute' ko sa kanya. Akala ko dati di nya papansinin ang mga messages ko but it  turned out mali pala ako. Dati nga ako lagi ang nag-start ng conversations pero now, minsan nauuna na sya. Masama bang kiligin? Hihi....

Ngayon he also drops by our house regularly. Pag-niyayaya kong kumain sa labas sumasama naman. Pagkasama namim mga classmates namin may mga bulungan kaming para sa amin lang. Haha. Private usapan, sariling sulyapan.  

Y: Hi!
M: Hello! (Medyo kinikilig kasi nauna sya mag message)
Y: Musta?
M: Ok naman. Masaya. You?
Y: Sobrang saya.
M: Talaga? Why naman? =)
Y: Yup.
M: Well good for you!
Y: Talagang good.
M: Haha! Mukha nga. Kwento why.
Y: Naaalala mo yung sinasabi ko sa yong classmate?
M: Ah yeah (Biglang kinabahan)
Y: Binigay nya na cell number nya. Tsaka dinner kami after class.
M: Wow! Good for you. Congrats
Y: Thanks!
M: =)

Where the hell did that come from? Hindi ko to inexpect. But I can't do anything but pretend that everything's fine.

M: Hi!
Y: Ellow!
M: Musta?
Y: Ok lang.
M: Kumain ka na? I hope tapos na para maka pag-aral ka na.
Y: Tapos na.
M: Okay naman ba kinain mo? I hope nabusog ka.
Y: K naman.
M: Ano ginagawa mo?
Y: TV. FB.
M: Wow pa relax-relax pa ha. Wag kalimutan mag-aral ha, may test tayo tomorrow. Medyo mahaba babasahin.
Y: Yup!
M: Good luck!
Y: (no more reply)

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Cheap Tablets - Are they worth buying?

I am using a Pipo tablet which I got for only P3,000 ++. It works fine for me. The screen gives a clear image. I don't have problems watching movies -- no sound or image delays. Surfing the net is also fine. I use it for twitter and facebook and I'm quite happy. It also works fine with games. I play temple run 1 and 2. I also play candy crush among others. It is pretty much okay when it comes to games. What I don't like is that it has no rear camera. And even the one in front does not give a good image. You also cannot download instagram with it even if it runs on android. But anyway, what would be the use of instagram if you can't get clear pictures anyway.

I can these cheap tablets are okay in general. They serve various basic needs. There will be limitations, of course, but if you can live with them then you'll be fine. What you need to do is to read carefully the specs of these cheap tablets first before you buy. Check what areas they are good at. If you like to use it just for games then see if the tablet is good for playing games. If you like to watch movies, then see if the tablet has a good screen resolution and the images and sound are always in sync. If you like taking pictures, then see if it has rear and front cameras. Again, carefully check what the tab can and cannot do and match with your own needs and preferences. 

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Candy Crush Saga - addicting

Candy Crush Saga is addicting. Admit it! A lot of people are hooked. If you want proof, check your notifications. More than half of your notifications is perhaps requests for lives or gifts sent by your other friends playing Candy Crush Saga.

I know of a friend who actually "buys" life using her credit card. That's Candy Crush Saga addiction. I on the other hand change the time on my tab. I add 2 1/2 hours to get additional lives.

I'm only on level 65. Owwwwmayyyyyygaaaaaaasssshhhh!!!!! I hate chocolates. Not that I like them to begin with but seeing them hiding the other candies makes me really hate them. Arrrggghhhh......

Hmmmmm......okay, time to stop this post.....I received a "life" from a friend!

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Summer Heat

We always hear people complaining about the heat these days. I for one complain about it because when you go out at noon you will really feel the heat on your skin. I'm lucky because my room at work has a good air-conditioning unit. I pity those who work outside or in offices without proper ventilation. 

I saw in a website (http://www.pagasa.dost.gov.ph/) that our temperature for today will be from 25 - 35 degrees Celsius. Wow! 35 is really high. I hope those working outside like vendors, street sweepers, traffic enforcers, etc brought with them protection - umbrella and hat. And I  do hope they brought plenty of water to drink lest they die of dehydration. 

It's summer. Normally we all dream of going to the beach to relax and cool off. But 35 degrees Celsius is really scary because that would mean "sunburn". I do not think a tube of sunblock with the best SPF would be enough for a couple of hours of exposure to the sun. 

Hmmm....beach? I'll just wait for 'better' days (hopefully before classes start).

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Wifi service in Buses

It used to be such that only Jac Liner buses going south (Lucena and Batanagas) have wi-fi on board. For a very long time, Jac Liner is the only bus company that offers this service to their customers. But recently, many bus companies followed their lead. DLTB now has wi-fi service too. I've also seen other buses going north which offer the same kind of service.

This is actually very nice for travelers. It was particularly helpful to people last week when traffic was bad because of the many vacationers who took advantage of the long weekend (Holy Week).

My only reminder to travelers is to be very careful with your belongings particularly your gadgets. Because of the wi-fi service in buses, many travelers tend to expose the gadgets they have. This actually attracts opportunists like robbers and snatchers. Try to be as discreet as you can in using your gadgets when traveling, okay?

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Kris Aquino - James Yap and Heart Evangelista - Chiz Escudero controversies

The days preceding Holy Week was not quiet because of the many controversies that happened particularly in showbiz. Top of the list is the fight between the Presidential Kris Aquino. It's Kris Aquino so expect it to become a "national concern". It even became more "news worthy" because of the appearance of the other Presidential sisters in Ted Failon's interview for ABS-CBN and Jessica Soho's interview for GMA. 

Things that are worthy to note are the phrases "three years" and "isang iyak ko lang sa tv". The three years comment of course was interpreted by many as a direct reference to the President himself who still three years in office. This comment did not sit well with I think a lot of people. If Kris Aquino indeed said that, that would mean exercising power for personal gains. And that I think is not right because it does not go well with "daang matuwid". The isang iyak comment was believed to refer to her power to convince people. She definitely has convincing powers. The many endorsements she has prove that people really believe what she says. But this time, did people really believe her. According to news reports and tsismis alike, many actually believed James yap more than Kris. I don't have the facts to support that but if it indeed were true, then her convincing power is now put in question. How will the advertisers react to this?

The other controversy is that of Kapuso actress Heart Evangelista and Chiz Escudero. It became big news because it involved persons in showbiz and politics. Many reacted to the issue because Heart Evangelista is no longer a child to be 'helped' by her parents in this manner. Many say that she is already old enough to make her own decisions. But the mother was good in the sense that she already had a defense in case people will throw her this argument. She said that her daughter is a 'needy' person plus some other things. But the sad thing is, she actually put her daughter down. The alleged qualities of Heart are not really worthy of a person idolized by many. 

Chiz Escudero was also put in a very bad light. It became even worse because he is seeking re-election. Had it been thrown at him at a time other than election season, damage would have been a little less manageable. But the latest surveys actually showed that it already had an effect on his popularity. He dropped a few notches lower. 

So what do we do with these controversies? Nothing! These are private issues that just happen to have happened in the lives of public figures. They do not directly affect us if you come to think about it. Their effect in our lives will probably come in in the future -- that is if the President will really use his powers for personal matters and if the re-electionist Senator is really an alcoholic which might affect his work as a legislator.

Did I say anything new here? Not really! I just want to ride the  tide. Lol 

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Text Responses Rewind

I'm posting something that I have already posted before but I'm editing it a little bit. It is about the different ways guys reply to text messages from their partners. You see, many issues between couples are results of texting issues -- wrong replies, no replies, late replies. I hope you'll enjoy reading this again.

1. SKY PATROL reply
The SKY PATROL reply is sent to you when you send the text message "I'm here already. Where are you?" (Translation: D2 na me, wer na u?) The reply is like a report from the sky patroler of TV Patrol. "Traffic in EDSA is heavy. It's a bumper-to-bumper situation. There seems to have been an accident near the flyover. That's where the bottle neck is.
 The traffic excuse is an overly used excuse. It is a convenient answer for guys. For them it is a good excuse because (a) it is always heavy traffic in Metro Manila so chances are you'll believe him and (b) girls won't spend/waste time to verify if there is really heavy traffic where he says there is -- or would you?
2. ON the WAY  reply
This is still in response to the same question in number 1. "I'm on the way already." (Translation: Papunta na. A variation  would be "nakasakay na.")
Do you think this gives a clear answer? NO? No, it does not. It could mean a lot like (a) I just left the house, (b) I just got on the bus, (c) I'm near, (d) I'm halfway there, (e) I'm just about to leave the house, etc.
Confusing reply, right? That is actually what guys want to achieve. They do not want to tell you something that you can later on question. You see, if he arrives long after you sent that message you cannot ask him the question "What took you so long? I  thought you were already on the  way." (Translation: O e akala ko ba on the way ka na e ba't ngayon ka lang dumating. Siguro dumaan ka pa sa ibang babae mo no? Siguro pumunta ka muna sa mga barkada mo no.") He can answer you safely like "When I sent you the reply I just got out of the condo. I said I'm on my way, not I'm near". You can't say he's lying.
 3. SAFE reply
"I was on the bus. I had to keep my phone in my pocket to be safe." (Variations: I was on the jeepney. I was on the tricycle. I was on the MRT/LRT. I was waiting for the bus. I was waiting for a jeepney.) This is a reply usually given when you ask him why he didn't reply to your previous message/messages. Guys usually give this answer because if you nag him about it he has a ready reply. "I wanted to text you but you know how it is when you commute. There are a lot of snatchers out there. Do you want me to lose my phone? The more that I will not be able to text you if that happens."
Just recently I learned a new variation of this one. I'd like to call this the DON'T DRIVE AND TEXT reply. If you ask your boyfriend why he didn't reply to your text, his answer would be "I was driving. I obviously can't text".  
 4. MR. CONGENIALITY reply
"I'm with my friends". This is a reply he gives after you've sent the message "Why aren't  you replying?" several times. You might feel bad that he is prioritizing his friends over you but that's how it is with men. When a guy bonds with his friends, he really gives his full attention to whatever they are doing. If this  happens just once in a while then stop nagging. At least he is being honest with you. You can get mad if he is with his friends more often than he is with you.
5. Un-LOADED reply
"I ran out of load." This is a common reply to the questions "Why are you not texting me?". It is a lame excuse, I think, but many guys use it. If you know the guy has money and he still gives this kind of excuse, slap him on the face. Okay, that's bad. Just nag. That's more painful than a slap on both cheeks. I mean if he has money, getting load shouldn't be a problem. There are a lot of stores selling electronic load.
A variation of this is "my line got cut". This is possible. But for your protection and peace of mind, find out about his billing details. Check with the service provider the usual period when they 'cut' lines. By the way, if your  partner is using blackberry and subscribed to bb chat or bb social, he can still send you bbm even if his line is cut so don't make him fool you.
 6. GUILTY as CHARGED reply
"Low bat." "Empty bat" "I wasn't able to charge". This is also as common a reply as that of number 5. What does this tell you? Your guy is irresponsible. We should all keep our phones with enough battery charge. Be forward looking. Charge your phone if you know you'll be out long. If your guy is like this, think how irresponsible he could/would be with his other concerns.
7. ANTENNA reply
"There's no signal". Your guy thinks that he still lives during the time when cellphones need to have a retractable antenna to get a signal. (Translation: Lagyan mo ng tinidor yung antenna ng radyo para marinig mo si DJ Triggerman. -  Did I translate it well? lol) Though there are still times when you can experience losing signal, they seldom last long. Just move a few steps away from where you are and voila, you have a signal. 
8. SPELL STOP reply
"OK", "CGE", "=)". When your guy texts you short responses like these, it means only one thing: STOP. He does not like to chat with you so just STOP.
9. MISSENT reply
"I'll see you later, baby!" is a missent message if baby is not a term of endearment he uses. He is intending to send it to somebody else but he mistakenly sent it to you. (Translation: I am cheating on you and I hope you won't find out about it.) I know you'll get really, really mad. Who wouldn't be? But at least be happy because you're the one on his mind even while texting the other one.
10. NOT MISSENT MISSENT reply
Did that confuse you? Let's make it clear then. Read this message. This is a reply to whatever text you have sent. "Bro, I felt sad this morning. I thought it was going to make her happy but I think she didn't even appreciate it." Who is the message for? Is it really for 'bro'? The answer is a big NO! It is for YOU. He intended you to know what he was feeling - in this case he probably wants to tell you that he felt bad that you did not appreciate his effort to make you happy on your 11th monthssary celebration. He does not have the guts to tell you straight so he made it appear like a missent message. How do you distinguish it from a real missent message? A not missent missent reply is detailed. Reading would tell you right away that he is talking about you. It is written such that you would know what he means. A real missent reply usually doesn't tell you anything concrete yet it tells you a lot. Or at least you think it tells you a lot. It actually makes you speculate.

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